I don't know what to say

Am I alone in my inability to have a normal conversation with someone?  It seems like it's simple for everyone, and it should be!  But the prospect of speaking one-on-one with someone is terrifying to me.  An impossible task.
I want to give people the change to know me.  And I want to know them in return...
But I freeze.  I make small-talk instead. 
And I'm having trouble pin-pointing exactly what makes conversation so terrible.
I just blank.  I approach someone, ready to get into some deep conversation, and suddenly the words just leave.  All I can come up with is "How was your day?"  "Good"
Then I think "Can't I just do this through e-mail?"  And I'm ashamed to think it.
Really? You can't even have a normal conversation?

A Song in My Heart

I've begun writing poetry again. But this time, there is a slight difference.
Behind the flow of words and rhymes, there is music.  I hear music when I write. 
Now if only I could learn to play music...

In my entire life, there has been nothing I've wanted more than to create music.  I never cared what instrument it came from.  And so I got a guitar.  And then a piano...  I don't know how to play either of them.  Perhaps here I will make a commitment to myself.  I. will. learn. an instrument.

Me?  Write a song?  No...not possible.  But...could I?  I've never really considered my poetry being put to music.  And if there would be music, I never thought I would be the one to WRITE it! 
My family is incredibly musically talented.  Singers, guitarists, pianists, bassists, drummers...clarinet, flute, trumpet.  It was always a joke in the family that my mother and I got none of the family talent.  Perhaps I was looking in the wrong places?
Songwriting.  I still can't imagine it.  And maybe it won't work...but I could try.
I would love to try!