As My Eyes Stare Forward

Solemn
Humble
Modest
They say these are qualities of the righteous
They say that I should bow completely
Make myself wholly vulnerable
But do I cast my eyes downward before God?
I refuse, though that makes me less of a man
          In your eyes that fall, as my eyes stare forward…
You ask why it is I have gone astray
They say that everything happens for a reason
God has a plan
But was it in God’s plan to lead me away?
To lead me into a dark forest
Only to be abandoned
Left alone to live for myself
To find my own way
For this I have done
I have found my own way
Made my own path
Without the help of your god, whom you fear to meet the eye of
The all powerful, all knowing, all loving god
You whisper wishes in the privacy of your mind
But have these ‘prayers’ been answered?
Did the skies open up?
Doves swarm and cry peace?
Innocence always treasured?
Love granted?
Because you asked it so?
I think not
Why would it be that he would answer to you?
Unless you assume god to be your slave…
But then, why is it you bow to him?
And so I stand boldly
For though your god may not be my slave…
I am not his
But you cannot see His smile
As He sees that I have learned
The Truth
          Why it is that your eyes fall, as mine stare forward.