How do I find destiny? How do I find a calling? A niche?
When everyone around me seems to have found what they are meant to do in life, I am left stumbling in the dark, trying to find a path of my own. I have dreams, of course. But are they realistic? Realistic enough to pursue? And with that, there are so many lives I want to live. I want to travel, but then I want to settle and have a family. I want to be an archeologist, but then I want to work in a library or a museum. I cannot have both, and yet I must make a choice. But how? We’ve been told all our lives to follow our dreams, but how do we follow them all?
I’m beginning to think it may not be possible. When all is said and done, there will still be a part of us that longs for something we did not pursue. Perhaps it was for the better, but the longing is still present. Will we feel unfulfilled? Or will we feel so satisfied with the choice we did make that the lost one won’t matter?
I hope for the latter.
“When in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes
I all alone beweep my outcast state
And trouble deaf heaven with bootless cries
And look upon myself and curse my fate
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope
Featured like him, like him with friends possessed
Desiring this man’s art, or that man’s scope
With what I most enjoy contented least
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising
Haply, I think on thee, and then my state
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven’s gate
For thy sweet love such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.”
Thank you, Shakespeare. Perhaps one day soon I shall find my way in the darkness. But I will need a guiding light. That light is the support, ideas, and love from those whom I hold closest. Probably without knowing it, you all have made a significant impact on my life, and I thank you for it.
I wish you luck. Though I keep a little for myself. Know that I’m going through the same thing, and you’re not alone.
Until next inspiration
The Librarian
The ponderings of a college student on Life, Love, and Faith.
2 comments:
Inspiration, my dear Librarian, is the key to destiny. And while I can say that now and see my own inspiration, I know well why it is so difficult to follow said inspiration down a dark path of unknown destiny.
Know for certain? I'm not sure that's possible. Satisfied with one life when you have dreams of many? No, I don't think that either. Hope for it, yes - like you I hope that I will find something so intriguing that it may carry me through my life happy, content, and satisfied...but unlike you, I refuse to believe you must choose one path.
What makes your two dreams so different, Librarian? I don't believe I see two roads diverged, but rather joined - and you jump from one to another when you could just as well walk between them.
So tell me, then, is it possible to see your own destiny as clearly as you do others? Or should we all just continue to make friends and help them find their true meanings in hopes that they would return the favor?
Librarian, my friend I'm sorry to see you so confused. The only words I have for you may not help you at all, but I will say them anyway. You are right in that the key is to follow your heart...your dreams. However you don't have to choose just yet. Right now you're at a point in your life where you must keep your eyes open, so see all that life has to offer you.
Choosing your path will come in time, however that time isn't now. No one knows what our destiny holds or where we'll be, what matters is how we get there. Take the time and wait. Maybe your path will be more obvious to you given that time, once you are closer to it.
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